“When I die, you’ll donate at least fifty
thou’, won’t
you, old brother? Nowadays a lot of people only pay
thirty thou’, but for me,
you’ve got to give at least fifty; you will, won’t
you? Sure?” A phone call
from roughneck Lee Something (age 47), sloshing about
in pungent waves of drink,
one spring night.
“Here, I got red-bean buns, you’ve got to
eat them
while they’re hot.” Screaming like he’s swallowed a
train, poet Park Something (age
47) barges into the middle of the quiet gathering and
hands over a plastic bag.
“Give me a kiss, one kiss!” He thrusts out a face
black from drinking, one
spring night.
“At any rate, we have to be clear about
marking our
beginning and end, fellas!” Jang (age 51), the owner
of a chicken-and-carp-soup
restaurant fusses. “To start, let’s sing the national
anthem. “Aigo,
it’s the first time such a fine
song has ever been heard at our place!” The halfwit
bar woman (age 50) remarks,
pouring on and on, even the leftover wine she’s
grabbed from a table no longer
occupied, one spring night.
“It’s a hundred twenty thousand won
really, but I’ll
just take a hundred thousand.” So with an “Are you
sure?” they fumble through
wallets, finally putting fifty thousand on the slate;
then, with a “Still,
let’s have just one more,” they wave an index finger,
pulling one another by
the sleeve to a streetside cart-bar, one spring night.
Death,
too, erupts as a crimson rash.
Kang
Something, Kim Something, O Something, they’ve
all gone on ahead.
I,
too, would rather drift off to some southern
streamside
The moment I
happened to notice the little toe
enclosed in a stocking, I sobered up in a flash. Lying
upside-down with
downcast eyes at the body’s most secluded corner, it
embodied a million years
of human history, so I dared not even hover about it
with adjectives of the
sentimental sort such as ‘pitiful’ or ‘pathetic.’ From
those starving in
Afghanistan to the wife of my father’s second cousin
who was a comfort woman
for the Japanese army, it seemed that enshrined within
its subdued modesty were
the spirits of wounds from time immemorial.
Seized with a
moment’s dread that the bent, hidden
thing might have died, my hand involuntarily reached
down and nudged it.
Ah, see how it
shrinks back, saying it’s alive!
That response
brought tears to my eyes, as it somehow
felt like a hopeless symbol of our hope.
The woman
sitting with her back to me, maybe or maybe
not sensing what I was feeling, drew her foot in
slightly, pulled down the hem
of her skirt, and gently covered it over.